Living.....

....with your in-laws can be a trying time. Or rather having your in-laws staying with you can be trying. I never feel like I'm home - always like I'm visiting.

I know they mean well, and they really are helping out, and I should be grateful, but to be honest, sometimes I'd be more grateful if they just went out every so often, and left me and my family a few hours to ourselves, in our own home!!!

I can feel my mood sinking, like a dark storm cloud appearing on the horizon. I mustn't let it fall to low. Chin up, and all that.

I miss you.

Not every day, not every week. But occasionally, it comes over me like a wave. I miss the way you used to make me laugh. The way you used to make me feel. The way you said I made you feel. But more than that, I miss your friendship. Somehow I thought we would always be friends. Always be in each others lives, no matter what happened. Naive and foolish I guess. I wouldn't change anything that happened. Anyway.

I miss you.

Wii.....

.... or even 'Weeeeee'.

Lovely Easter Sunday, spent with family and friends, and of course my daughter. She saw snow for the first time today, and had a lovely time with everyone. Now I've packed her off to bed, and am hoping she hasn't got herself too over excited, and will still sleep through the night.

Tomorrow, I am completing some 6 or so job applications for various posts in the local county council. I'm going to bully them into taking me on, by virtue of applying for almost every job going!! I wonder if it will work?.... :o)

I'm in the calm of my room, after a hectic day, and am chilling out nicely. I'm feeling happy and postive about things.

Life is good.

Easter..

....is fast approaching. I love Easter Eggs me....

I didn't get the job I was after. I'm not going to let it get me down though. I am determined to be positive through all this.

I start my training today for Race 4 Life. Haven't done any running in about a year, so I think that now would be a good time to start preparing for the race in July. I've started by drinking loads of water - I'm notoriously bad at hydrating myself. Must get into the habit of it.

one down....

...none to go. The other job didn't get back to me, so I only had one interview yesterday.

It was a nice place - around 20 mins drive from where I live, and friendly people. I didn't do anything wrong, so if I don't get the job, I'll have done all I can.

It brought up the notion of me having my 5 year plan. I'm going to get a part time job now. Go to college in the Autumn to complete my accountancy qualification. That will take 2 years. Then work my socks off for a few years to build up a bookkeeping portfolio of work.

I'll see - there are a lot of things to consider - sick pay, holiday pay, maternity benefits should I decide on another child... all these sort of things...

I'd like it though. I don't want to be a world beater. I just want a nice income, and a bit of independance.

2.....

..potential job interviews to go to... things might be looking up.

I have one definite one on Monday, and the other one might be calling me back today. Fingers crossed anyway.

I met up with a friend on Wednesday that I haven't spoken to face to face for over 4 years. We had a major falling out, which I won't go into the details of now. But time mellows people, and both of us seem happy enough to try and build bridges.

Mother's Day...

.....is something I didn't envisage I'd be celebrating about this time last year! I think I had just found out I was pregnant, and while happy, I still don't think I've got my head round it. It has meant a lot of changes for me, and my life is unrecognisable from before L came into the world. But I am loving it.

It's cold here today. My in-laws are currently living with us - a temporary arrangement which has gone on much longer than I'd anticipated or hoped. My father-in-law insists on opening the windows in every room in the house every morning. I spend my time going round closing them. I like him, don't get me wrong, but we do clash. He is obsessively neat. I go round moving the rugs, cos I know that he will go round straightening them. Sad I know, but these little things keep you sane!

Anyway, to all mum's out there, have a good one, and I hope you are being pampered to the hilt!

Football.....

.....is another great passion in my life, and I'm off to the match this afternoon. We are playing a team we traditionally do very badly against, so I'm not over confident, but if there is one thing I have learnt in football, it's to expect the unexpected. Also, that everyone speaks in clichés... hehe.

I had a nice day yesterday, spent it out with my sister H, and L and I went with her to see one of her friends who lives in Bucks with her hubby and 2 sons. She seems very happy, contented, and is very lucky. I am envious of her, not that I wish her not to have the things she has, but that I wish I had them too.

My first Mother's Day tomorrow. How weird will that be?!!